Mental illness

Chances are, if you clicked this, you were curious to see what I linked here, in which case I have to disappoint you by saying that the answer is nothing interesting. I know that a lot of people have questions about my mental illness, though, so I thought I’d clarify a bit to try to answer some before they’re asked.

What mental illnesses do you have?

Depression, social anxiety disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, trichotillomania, dermotillomania, OSDD, and ADHD type 1. I also struggle with gender dysphoria, disordered eating, and the effects of emotional abuse and trauma, but these aren’t necessarily mental illnesses, and/or I haven’t spoken about them in order to be diagnosed.

Are you faking these for attention?

I wish I were, because it’d make my life a lot easier, but no. They’ve been professionally diagnosed, and I take medication for some of them.

Are there things you want neurotypical people to know?

Not necessarily. There’s a lot of stigma around mental illness, though. Mental illness is just as real as physical illness, and deserves to be treated with respect, because oftentimes it can be really dangerous. A lot of people don’t realize just how serious it can get until either they or somebody they know is in danger–I thought I was faking it until I was contemplating suicide to catch a break from oppressive depression. If you think something is wrong, please don’t hesitate to get appropriate help.

Another thing–mental illnesses are not adjectives. Saying that you’re OCD because you’re neat can be damaging to those who actually have OCD and have to shower for six hours every day to feel clean, or have to flip their light switch exactly 103 times so that something bad doesn’t happen to their family. Saying that you have depression because you’re sad about a breakup is harmful to those who can’t get out of bed in the morning, who self harm just to feel something, and are so apathetic they can’t interact with other people. Some people can’t get help because they aren’t believed, or think that they’re just like everybody else and don’t deserve help because of statements like those, and that can lead to a lot of problems. Being aware of that is pretty important.

What should I do if I think I might be mentally ill?

I’m working on a page of resources that I’ll link here as soon as they’re finished! You’re also always welcome to message me if you need, or talk to somebody close to you who you trust. You don’t have to do this alone, so please stay strong.

Other questions? Feel free to contact me and ask!